Life Will Continue Momentairly

Life Will Continue Momentarily





One brief moment,
And my world gets thrusted into a rush of emotions.
I'm Ecstatic.
I'm Worried.
I'm Frustrated.
Time slows and my emotions land from the sky
and I'm Content.
My world fades from focus.
I try to grip on to something
but my senses fail me.
There is not a combination of words that
escribe how I feel,
at this moment, right now,
with you.
But I guess I'll do my best:
Every beat of my heart,
I feel the rush of blood through my veins.
And my stomache burns from this diet
of nerves,
but it's all I can choke down.

My knees feel like they'll give with the next step,
and I'm surprised to see I'm still walking with you.
And as we walk together,
I'm so close to dissolving from here.
I might fade.
Reality hits,

and I think of one way to express myself to you:
One kiss.
Just to show you this.
I pull all that I can in me together,
and compose myself,
I'm ready to show you.
And you leave.
I watch as you drive away,
and I'm Relieved

Kiss The Stars.

Kiss The Stars

Remember our first kiss?
It was right under these stars.
But they don't shine as bright,
they seem so distant, so far.
Look what you've done!
This mess ruined everything.
They once were so beautiful
But now, a few of them get seen.
They used to shine so much more
Like little dots of light
Look at them now, straight above,
Don't they seem too high?
Yes, they've drifted from Earth.
No, you've driven them away.
I thought you put them up there,
But instead you dimmed their rays.
Remember our first kiss?
It was right under these stars.
Like them, you've pushed me away.
Now I feel so distant, so far.

(C) Stevie 2009

This Heart, MY Heart

This Heart, MY Heart

You never knew the truth,
don't you want to know now?
Quit trying to play it off,
it's my side you won't allow.
But I've got it right here,
all that I have to say.
Stop! Let me get it out.
so don't try to go away.
I loved you from the beginning,
ready to give you all of me.
Didn't you hear it in my words?
In my eyes! Didn't you see?!
This heart, MY heart
filled with faults and flaws
I offered it to you,
waiting there, you never saw.
How could I trust you?
I almost gave you my heart.
I lost myself somewhere,
yet you left at the start.
Now I'm finally done,
leaving you far behind.
I'm pushing you away.
I've made up my mind.
I don't want you here,
so I suggest you leave.
Get out of my life, now!
Find another to decieve,
because now you know
you aren't decieving me.

(C) Stevie 2009

I'm Bad News, I'm Good News.

I'm Bad News, I'm Good News.

I could hurt you so bad,
just as easily ruin it all.
I could mess with your head,
and watch as you fall.
I might plays some dark game,
maybe kiss you by the stars.
I might let you fall for me,
and let it go too far.
I shouldn't be on your mind,
or even get to hold you.
I shouldn't be trusted,
no less thinking of you.
I won't be the bad guy,
swear, I won't break your heart.
I won't mess up like I have,
or let anything fall apart.
I'll be your entire world,
and save it like Superman.
I'll be your best friend,
there, holding your hand.
Let me into your heart,
give me just one shot.
Let me show you who I am,
I'll give it all I've got.
I want to show you
I'm more than you've heard.
Am I bad news, am I good news?
Just twist one word.

(C) Miss Amazing 2009

Chasing Stars.

Chasing Stars.

I gaze up to the stars
But I have to strain my eyes.
I can't see them up there
They're hiding in disguise.
I'm wanting to grab them
But it just seems too hard.
From here, this spot
They seem too far.
I don't want them to fade
Won't they stay for now?
Give me the time to dream
Don't take the last bow.
What am I chasing?
I'm looking up at these
I have to decide
Before they fade with the breeze.
Hold on, don't go away
Please don't leave, don't fade.
If only you'd wait a moment
You could just light up my day.

(c) Miss Amazing 2008

Paint me a picture

Paint Me A Picture

Drip, drop.
The paint falls onto my canvas
And for the moment
The rest of the world leaves me.
Drip, drop.
I fiddle with my brush as I think
What shall I create?
One curious idea intrigues me.
Drip, drop.
This sound is almost like music
Greying out the world
I play this tune all the time.
Drip, drop.
This pictures is taking shape now
I don't call it art
Because I just see it as mine.
Drip, drop.
I think its almost offensive
Do people think of it?
Would they consider it for purchase?
Drip, drop.
It's never good enough for me
I can't paint just one
So maybe it's not even worth it.
Drip, drop.
The paint falls onto my canvas
And for the moment
The rest of the world leaves me.
Drip, drop.
I've found my way to get away
But it isn't real
This way of dealing decieves me.
Drip, drop.

Fathers.

Fathers.

If only you cared
You could see her smile
If only you cared
You'd drive another mile
If only you cared
To send a birthday card
If only you cared
It wouldn't be this hard
If only you cared
She'd have another side
If only you cared
She could be alright
If only you cared
You could make her day
If only you cared
She could be okay
If only you cared
About your first girl
If only you cared
You could be her world

(c) Miss Amazing 2008

You Shine Bright

You Shine Bright

I'm stuck gazing again
At the stars out tonight
They remind me of you
But you burn twice as bright
You taught them to burn
And to light up my life
You do the same thing
You make it alright
I wonder how many there are
Let's lie under them and count
You already have the answer
It was you who put them out
Light up my world
Shine like you always do
You're closer than the stars
And you're twice as bright too
(c) Miss Amazing 2008

Red Puddle

Red Puddle

The deep red puddle
leaves a permenant stain.
The blood wouldn't stop
as it flowed from her vein.
The doctor will say,
"I'm very sorry miss.
The only thing she left
was just one last kiss."
The scars on her wrists
showed the pain she beared.
No one ever bothered,
no one seemed to care.
Her eyes are closed,
her chest is still.
She grasps the note,
"I've lost all will."
Now nothing is left,
her life is done.
They ruined it all
for a night of fun.
(c) Miss Amazing 2008

Wondering...

Wondering

Hmm, I have to wonder.
No really, I do.
I can't say what it is.
But I wonder about you.
Whatever, this is a good wonder.
Like when you wonder about the sky.
Just wondering on and on.
I keep wondering why.
I look foward to talking to you.
Which is almost every day.
But when you come around.
What do I have to say?
I guess I'll watch and wait
To see what happens next
I'm gripping my phone,
Just waiting for your text.
I like you a lot.
What's the big deal?
Just wondering now
If this is actually real.
Who knows where
Do we go from here?
Fill the car with gas,
I'll take the wheel and steer.
So I'm still wondering
What's going on in me.
Just feeling a little different
About you, crazy.
(c) Miss Amazing 2008

Unaccounted Apology

Unaccounted Apology

I’m sorry I thought
We were going somewhere.
I’m sorry I smiled
When you played with my hair.
I’m sorry I fell
For you right at the start.
I’m sorry I hoped
You’d give me your heart.

I’m sorry I cried
Over memories of us.
I’m sorry I wanted
More than just lust.

I’m sorry I waited
For your call by the phone.
I’m sorry I called
When you weren’t even home.

I’m sorry I reached
For your hand again tonight.
I’m sorry I kissed
You as it all burned bright.

I’m sorry I played
Along like your little doll.
And I’m sorry I lied
Cause I’m not sorry at all.

(c) Miss Amazing 2008